In 2009 I went through a profound past life regression. It was my first regression and although I had been trying to fit it into my schedule I found myself making excuse after excuse. What would I find? Have I really had a past life? What if it did not work for me? I had so many questions that were building blocks of truly missing the point that I was letting my conscious mind take over my subconscious. I was not being open to this opportunity that was being presented to me. Ultimately, whom is this really going to hurt, no one except me. If I did live other lives maybe it would serve me to understand certain things that I continually do in this lifetime.
At first I was asked to go back to a memory as a child which brought me back to the time that we lived on the farm with my grandfather. Now am I going back to this time in my mind because I have recently written a book that briefly talks about this time? I can hear myself but I feel like I’m asleep in a dream, suddenly I see myself as a child running towards something. I don’t remember this as a child and although I cannot see anything around me I feel happy with no fear, judgment, or worries. I have a beautiful white dress with ruffles and they are flowing in the wind. I’m smiling or laughing and fill tremendous love. I’m not sure what I’m running towards but it does not seem to matter, I’m just being in the moment of sweet childlike love.
I was then suddenly a different little girl sitting on a bench waiting for someone that is not coming. I’m sad because I feel all alone and not sure where to go. I will not go on about this lifetime as it was short lived while sitting on that bench, but my point is that there were two little girls with different feelings. There’s much to share about my first past life regression event, maybe I will share more in another article but for now I want to share what transpired afterwards that definitely changed my mind about whether past life regression was real. I walked away from this regression with great insight and understanding of certain events that have happened in this lifetime from previous lifetimes. Do I truly believe that we live multiple lives? I will say that I saw my current mother holding me as a little baby in this lifetime and it was surreal. I felt great love from her and the understanding that love is always there however it’s the events that happen within our lives that create building blocks shutting out that feeling of love.
Years later my mother and I had a falling out, which led to us not speaking to each other for over a year. It was such a heavy burden on my heart! I fell into depression, however after stumbling upon notes that I took after the regression you can imagine my amazement, it was like a lightbulb went off. That past life regression event actually helped me through my depression because I knew without a doubt all there was between my mother and I was love, that’s all I needed and I knew with time this love would overcome any obstacles within our relationship.
Another amazement that I found enlightening, was an email I received the day after the past life regression event. The email was from Neal Donald Walsch’s daily list. Upon reading the message, it reminded me of the two little girls with different feelings and thoughts but it also reminded me that we are all god’s children and innocent in his eyes. Just as our own children are innocent in our eyes, they make mistakes and there is a great feeling to be by their side during hard times. At times, we may have to step back and let our children follow their own paths even if it may be hard to watch. As a child or adult we may feel that our parents no longer care for us or love us but deep down we know we are in their heart. Maybe you feel God has forgotten you or left you to follow a path on your own however God is within you just as your parents are within you. Here is a copy of the email that was sent from Neal Donald Walsch:
“On this day of your life, dear friend I believe God wants you to know….that you are a pure child of God, beautiful in your innocence — and…… That this is true no matter what you may have done. There is no offense you could ever commit that can rob you of your magnificence, or of the wonder of who you are. Gosh, Eliot Spitzer’s drama has brought up a lot of stuff for all of us, hasn’t it? Yet who among us hasn’t fallen from the path, betrayed another, acted unwisely, fallen prey to temptation, given in to a craving or addiction? All of us are human. And in God’s eyes that makes us perfect. Really. Just the way we are. Like 3-year-olds, looking anxiously up at some elder, wondering with quivering lips whether we’ll get a spanking for breaking the rules… The 3-year-old is beautiful in her innocence. He or she is pure as snow, and there is simply something that has not been totally understood, or fully integrated into behavior yet. It’s okay. We don’t mean to be “bad.” And in truth, we aren’t. Not a one of us. We’re simply, sometimes, mistaken. And God loves us anyway.
Immensely. Completely. Eternally. Just as we are.
Oh, and by the way, …you already know the reason that this particular reminder came to you today…
Love, Your Friend…. Neal Donald Walsch”
Hoping this message fills your heart with love and understanding that you are a true being of beautiful spirit with bright light. Is Past Life Regression real? IDK but after these messages in my life….. well you get the picture, probably so in my book! And still today, the notes written from the past life regression help see me through struggles in this lifetime.